*Please continue to pray for Keith's Family. Miss Michelle and his Grandparents and esp. Wesly need all the prayers they can get in this difficult time.*

11-30-87 ~ 03-14-05 We love you Keith

Tonite after the visitaion I went out with Michael. I wish I could tell him how I feel about him. But If i tell him all those things then where does that leave us? I can tell you where.... me in texas and him in sc. Its unfair that the one normal, hott, straight, guy who gives me butterflies and cares about me lives in the one place I cant be.

I dont really want to come back here after I leave..... there is no sumter without Keith. Keith was my sumter... Miss Michelle put the other half of my heart (the necklace) around Keith's neck. Its not in his pocket... its over his heart.... where it belongs.

I love him still.... i will forever.... I love his family... and his friends....well..... my friends too... I hope he saves me a seat next to him.....

God Bless

Its pretty late at night. I m not sure if i've slept.....or if I just laid there with my eyes closed. I think I got a couple hours. Its really not even sleep.... just deep thinking.

I got david's gum yesterday..... well... day before yesterday. The kind that tastes like apples..... Its really good. I need to get more and take it home to him... I dont know why I have this fascination with getting him gum and pez..... I need to get him somthing better.... less candy more substantial.

I met Bubacz last nite... for 30 minutes. I may see him tonite.

I dont know what will be harder.... having to see the looks on my friends faces...... or knowing its really Keith. Hes really not on earth any more. I keep trying not to be sad.... smile... smile, be happy. Im so happy for him that he isnt in pain anymore. No more suffering, no more sleepless nights. K man is finally at peace. And yet its still so painful, for me. Hes probably sitting up in heaven getting so irked with me.... or do can they do that up there? lol ...... I think if he were here right now he would tell me to think about what they *he* would want. Keith would want me to smile.... and live, and love and do everything to the fullest..... the way he did every day.

Oh how I miss him.

I will always be in love with you Keith. Your memory will live forever with the people who loved you most...

God saw you were getting tired
And a cure was not meant to be
So he put his arms around you
And whispered come with me
With tearful eyes we watched you
As we saw you pass away
Although we love you deeply
We could not make you stay
Your golden heart stopped beating
Hard working hands at rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best

March 14 2005

Keith was a great guy who would never hurt anyone and will be missed.. If your one of the many ppl who dearly and truely miss and love keith copy and paste this in ur info!3*14*05 <|--a day we will NEVER forget

So im still worried about keith ... I love him and I need to see him.... but...

Michael...... *sigh* I havent seen him in so long...and he looks really good.  I miss him already cause I havent seen him in forever..... so nice to be around somone who doesnt have anything huge going on in his life... Dont get me wrong I love my other guy friends with all my heart...... but Michael... there is somthing so refreshing about seeing him. I needed that. Hopefully I'll see him again before I leave.... I really need to. Whatever girl gets to be with him in the end is going to be so lucky... hes so awesome.

*sigh*

so here I am....its 11:40 and Im semi happy... I can feel somthing wrong deep down but I know i'll be ok.... being around michael just gives me a lil extra happy... hes changed alot.  *love the hair*

Love you... Give me a call...

Im here in south carolina. I just love everything about sumter.... and no one can understand why I feel this way.... no one but me. ......

Keith,

I love you.. and I am always here for you..... there isnt anyone in this world that means to me what you do.

What if I don’t have the strength to walk away?

If only my tears could melt away all your fears

And my love could heal your pain.

If my anger could turn back time

And my fear could freeze my heart so I couldn’t feel hurt .....

not poetry.... just saying what I think....

I wish somone could be here with me right now....